| Wednesday, May 24, 2006 |
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I've been so tired and busy these last couple of days. Deadlines here and meetings there. office projects cropping up and promises made long ago coming back from the dead.
Last night i was practicing with the guitar, my current R&R craze and the one thing I look forward to each day, but it seems I've lost my magic =( I tried writing again too because I haven't written anything in three days, but i couldn't think of a single thing to write about.
Sleep has ceased to be a respite for me, as my nights nowadays keep me tossing and turning. In the mornings, I wake up with a bad back, heavy eyes and shaky limbs. On top of that, I'm always thinking, thinking and thinking. I'm so tired of thinking... it gets me absolutely nowhere. But keep thinking, i still do...
So here are some of the thoughts I had on my way to work.
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A few years back, my then boyfriend's and my common friend sang me this song: 'There's no future, so don't fake it.'
She meant it as a joke to say that we wouldn't work out. At that time, I thought it was a mean joke because right from the start of our relationship, she wasn't exactly what i would call supportive of us. True enough, three months after she said that, my bf and i broke up.
my relationships after that weren't the type that lasted long either. which made me think about that song in the first place.
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but here's a sliver of hope! something i came across in marcus' blog (marcus, i took the liberty of borrowing this line, i hope its ok... ^_^)
someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked with anyone else... :)
this has been said to me so many times before in so many ways but i guess i just never listened until now. i've always believed that there is one person meant for each of us, one person who will be our greatest love. of course you would never know who your greatest love is until you reach the end of the day, look back - and see that one person who, no matter how the two of you ended up, will keep pulling on the strings of your heart.
for some people, this one person eventually ends up with them; for some, this person becomes a ghost of their past - someone they will never have but to whom they will forever be bound to.
the latter brings such a sad fate... take my boss, for example. He's been married for 35 years to the same woman, whom he calls 'honey', accompanies on trips, picks up at the gym etc. etc. But they sleep in separate rooms in the same house, talk through email, and he never introduces her to his guests whenever he holds business functions at their house. And once in a while, he tells us stories of his first love, a girl he met over 45 years ago and never forgotten until now.
ayokong maging ganon. It doesn't matter to me anymore how many mistakes i commit or how much more heartache i encounter. But I won't make a mistake on something this big...
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I'm very thankful for all the people in my life, but there's one I'd especially like to thank now. My Ninang Susan who is one of my mom's bestfriends. When we were young we didn't see her much, but eversince my dad died almost four years ago, she has never failed to text me inspirational quotes everyday. Like yesterday, when i woke up feeling down, she sent me this:
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. Know a good thing when you see it, and don't let it slip away. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it would be easy, they just said it would be worth it.
And then this morning, when i couldn't decide on something, she sent me this:
It's in our moments of decision that our destiny is shaped. Focus on where you want to go, not on what you fear.
Wala lang. ^_^ Her messages just comes at the right time.
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waaah... four more days to go before my workweek ends... i've never been so happy for the existence of Sundays! lately, that's the only day i get to rest, but sunday comes and goes all too quickly... huhuhu... kaya lang i really need to clean my room pa... so there goes my sunday. oh well. Buti na lang this friday i have a date with champ!!! ^_^ (oooowwoooaahhh... hindi ko maisip kung wala ka... heheh) |
posted by Tami @ 8:25 AM
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hi chong! ang lalim na naman ng mga iniisip mo! wag ka kasi masyado mag-iisip, napa-praning ka na naman eh! ito ay isang bagay na hindi kelangan ng isip hehehe naks. enjoy your date with champ. im sure ma-re-relaks ka. also make the most of your sunday! tulog lang!
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make the most nga e noh, sabay natulog! hehehe
ay naku, after the things that happened yesterday, etong pinagsasasabi ko dito is the last thing on my mind. =) but you're right, things like this e hindi pinag-iisipan. darating na lang yan.
bukas na si champ! kailangan magpaganda, magpabango at magtootblas! hehehe =P
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hi chong! ang lalim na naman ng mga iniisip mo! wag ka kasi masyado mag-iisip, napa-praning ka na naman eh! ito ay isang bagay na hindi kelangan ng isip hehehe naks. enjoy your date with champ. im sure ma-re-relaks ka. also make the most of your sunday! tulog lang!