| Wednesday, September 06, 2006 |
| Ooops, I did it again |
Arg! i hate it. no i'm just kidding, i love every bit of what it's making me feel, even though i don't think it's necessarily doing me good. but that's my fault for letting my thoughts get the better of me.
anyway, yesterday, i bought a 6-inch veggie delite from Subway (my ultimate craving since three weeks ago!!!) i couldn't wait to sink my teeth into the sandwich, and my merlion (nyarl! =P) instincts were becoming harder and harder to control as i stood at the counter, watching the sandwich come to life. when out of the blue, i heard the first few familiar beats of a song that i've come to associate with someone - needless to say, someone i've been thinking about a lot lately.
wah! as if my mind hasn't been playing enough tricks on me already. the whole wide, compassionate universe had to pitch in too??? Mein Gott. But i finished the song anyway, even if it meant getting the (done for!) sandwich from the counter and inching closer and closer (and ever so slowly =P) to the door, which was like only 12 steps away.
before, i would have thought that instances like this meant something. but now, i think its just plain silly. all these 'signs' are probably everywhere anyway, at any given time. i just happen to selectively notice and pick out those 'signs' that i unconsciously want to interpret as meaningful for me and the object of my affection.
this always happens to me and its something i have to deal with on my own. soon. everytime i get into someone, i get so distracted and think, feel, breathe him. and it doesn't help that i get subtle reminders here and there like i see his name wherever or a song i associate with him or a similar car, etc.
ahhh... i want my thoughts back...
my dilemma is, in order to get my thoughts back, i need to withdraw from ‘you-guessed-right!’ for a while, which is the last thing i want to do =(
as the song would go, ----, --- -- ---- --- ^_^
hehe why not? =P ummm… sh**… am I going crazy? Ope nut! Hyper and silly, yes, starting to. Tsk tsk =)
ok I better sleep now, before something else slips. I pretty much just gave myself away there =D |
posted by Tami @ 3:49 AM
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