Be it a raise, a promotion, a new and/or improved relationship, better grades, more time, more happiness, another opportunity, an impetus, or sometimes - an escape.
Sometimes you don't know. You find yourself stumped. Until one day, you meet someone. Someone who makes you happy. Someone who makes you think you can do anything, everything, and makes you feel excited about it. Someone who tells you that you're beautiful. And for the remainder of the time you spend together, you actually believe it. Someone you were glad you gave a second chance. Someone you want so badly to see again, because you can't wait to hear what you're going to talk about next.
Things fall into place inside your head, and all of a sudden plans days and weeks in advance come rolling off your tongue. You think of all the things you wanted and still want to do, that you never got to start doing before, and think that you can do it.
And then BAM! You wake up, hit your head on an air wall, and reality sinks in. The plans and the wants are still there. But Someone isn't. So your plans and your wants go back to where they started in the first place - your head. Then you wait for someone or something else to arrive before you coax your plans and your wants out again. Its a vicious cycle.
Free of this cycle, and free to be me (if I can only find out exactly what 'me' means.) I really don't like waiting. At all.
And so I wait again. *toink!*
----- All right, all right! This has gone on for too long. This has got to change. NOW. (Photos courtesy of PostSecret) |
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this may sound corny, but it is easier now that i'm really more myself na.