Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent. - Victor Hugo
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Nothing Left To Say
I don't know what's happening to me recently. Petiks naman ako but I can't seem to focus on any topic long enough to write something about it. Times like these, when I can't vocalize what I really want to say, I am content just sitting back, or staring off into space, or walking around aimlessly - just walking and walking and walking.
But you know what I want? I want company. The thing is, when company is around, I still don't have the heart to spill my guts out, and I end up struggling to fill awkward (at least I think it is) silences, until I forget what I was supposed to be spilling out.
I don't know how to say it without looking weak. Or melodramatic. Or broken. I know its ok to be weak sometimes. Oftentimes. Most times. But I'm afraid that that will push people away, so I keep it all inside. Until I burst... in some dark corner, on my side of the bed, under the shadows of streetlamps, in between techno beats of jeepneys.
I'm still figuring out how to say it. But while I haven't... pwede... samahan niyo na lang ako? Sayaw tayo.
hello, got ur site via aryo, the mere sound of ur blog name made my tummy crumble, anyways nice blog. have a nice day.